Last evening when I took cutie down to the park to play, a friend commented how forlorn and lost I looked, afterall it's my birthday, I should be cheerful. I said I realized, but failed to be happy.....there's a knot in my heart....my eyes kept stinging....she is a wise girl....she said she understood...she said that every birthday we wish that something extraordinary is going to happen in our lives, but it never does, and another birthday just passes by....just like any other day....
I am very good at f****** up relationships. I breed complexity. Inspite of knowing deep down that expectation is the root cause of sorrow, I end up expecting too much, and then fall flat....losing everything I had. Why do I do this.....regret is so painful.....and deeds are so irreversible.
About Me
- Rituparna
- I started writing on an impulse, as my very first post indicates. It was mostly, as an effort to understand myself better. I have graduated from that phase, lately. These days the endeavor is mostly creative. I indulge myself in poetry writing:)! More than often, love pervaded,thus a tad bit embarrassing at times. But how can I help it, being an incurable romantic at heart. Life and literature is meaningless to me, sans romance. I am still extremely self conscious about this, and only very recently have started sharing this link with the world. Inspite of this awkward shyness, like any writer, I too have a strong urge to be read. What can be a better platform than this....thus...I continue writing so! A few lines about the title of my blog...Lais.sez-faire...I don't know french. I came across this phrase in wikipedia....somehow, one day...the very essence of freedom, surrounding this particular phrase appealed to me, though technically it indicates higher forms of political, social and economic ideology. Why should I bother about such lofty, obtuse concepts, I am just an aspiring poet, and absolutely refuse to look beyond the beauty of this phrase!
