The dreamer

When the night is silent and dark ,
And half the mind is sleeping,
I can feel behind my shut eyes,
A precious dream stealthily creeping.

I struggle in this subconsciousness,
An aspirant dream catcher,
So tightly blindfolded by stark reality,
Only sleep drowns this subordinary creature.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

The higher plan

I felt it right then,
When you looked into my eyes,
Our destinies are intertwined,
And together we will rise ,
Above all that is convention,
And the promises proven untrue,
A higher plan is intended,
It's no use looking through.
So let's cross the line today,
But only in our dreams,
My life is worth living, in real,
If sometimes, of you, I get a glimpse.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Reasons

Everyday I find hundred reasons,
To stay out of your way,
You be safe, you be content,
That's only what I usually pray.

Then I find thousand more reasons,
To catch your attention,
And as I do it, I realize, I've given you
One more reason, from me, to run.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Agreement

Everybody deserves a second chance.
Come-on, so why not me?
You just can't block me this way,
And pretend not to see.

I promise, I'll let you be free,
And not be on constant guard,
You in turn, love me now and then,
When I'm lonely, and things get hard.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Scary thought

Sometimes, when I think about you,
I'm rudely taken aback,
By the intensity of the love I feel,
And the practicality that I lack.

So when another thought takes your place,
For a moment, or, say a few,
I become quite jittery and scared,
Fearing that I must have lost you.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Cry

I need to, somehow,
Let you know,
How this fire inside me,
Beyond bounds, I've let it grow,
That I find it arduous,
Anymore to contain,
Take away, take away,
What is yours for certain.

I have waited all this while,
My eyes searching far and wide,
Praying for you to come once more,
And wipe away the tears I cried.
The hope is lost, now I know,
Such, will never happen, again,
You've left, and the fire still burns,
But in vain, oh, how in vain.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

By the Animals...a song

"Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood."

Baby, do you understand me now
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive
Can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that all I have do is worry
Then you're bound to see my other side
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy I want you to know
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has it's problems and I get my share
And that's one thing I never meant to do
Because I love you
Oh, Oh baby don't you know I'm human
Have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself long regretting
Some foolish thing some little simple thing I've done
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

Wilted wisdom

Well, I finally had to grow up,
And become somewhat wise.
I miss my youthful arrogance,
Those wishful dreams in naive eyes!

Wisdom hasn't been that easy,
Oh, I think too much these days,
Life seems to be in utter control,
While happiness shrewdly evades.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Just finished watching Before Sunrise and Before Sunset, back to back. Mesmerising. I would give anything to have such conversation, and such a night with someone.

The note

Even until this morning,
I so confidently believed,
You could possibly love me less,
But never quite unlove me.

Shortly after, I received a note,
Painstakingly handwritten by you,
Just to let me know, subtly,
That I'm despised, and how deeply so!
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Dear friend...

You are in a land,
So many distant miles away,
Inspite of the lost time between us,
We are so much closer today.

Now that we've grown up,
You know we could meet,
It should be fun to watch,
How, each other, we greet!
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Sorcery

Each morning as I rise,
I let my heart indulge,
In a silly little exercise.
Eluding time and space,
I concentrate on tricking you,
To bethink my forgotten face.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

The dream

As the day progressed,
Not knowing why,
I grew pensive and quite perturbed.
In my last night's dream, I then recalled,
We couldn't look in the eye,
And you were forlorn and lost.
I concluded, perhaps,
To have found you so, it broke my heart.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

The gifts

The music that you gathered
For me, one long sleepless night;
My touch that you so lovingly
Preserved, in the pocket of that shirt;
The pain in your look,
Knowing my dilemma and my plight;
The incidental warmth,
That our bodies shared, I still remember that;
A teardrop here; and a sigh there;
All locked up in the chest,
And carefully labelled as 'fragile',
These precious gifts, from my friend.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Unclaimed

They say,
You bring out the best in me,
In euphoric times,
And in emptiness. Equally.
So you see,
I've been consumed by you,
In everyway.
I am of no good to another.
This soul is sold.
And to be possessed by none.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

The pact

When we said goodbye,
You couldn't smile,
Neither did you cry. Well, I did.
Now I don't anymore,
It's futile. You are fading away.
So let's make a pact now,
We'll meet sometimes,
In my dreams.
I will smile then.
And you can cry.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Touchstone

In a place beyond the dark,
Sinister times, there lies a white touchstone,
I'll travel in space, and fetch it one day,
And put it in your red trembling hands,
You should not suffer this way,
And be free from your web of lies.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Future

I am anxious to reach
That phase in my life,
When I can think of you,
And not be in constant strife
With self, and not be in pain,
When you are near me.
I want to look at you and smile,
Like before, like it once used to be.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Forbidden journey

This evening,
Caged in the present lifetime,
I wish to transcend,
The ever so hypnotic
And luminous twilight zone,
To find a place in eternity,
Where we can rebuild our lost hopes,
And dwell in the warmth of our desires,
Breathing the air of longing,
Drinking the potion of forbidden love.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Hackneyed lovestory

You would not understand,
How deeply I've loved you,
Such pity, you'll never realize your worth,
And know your life's true due.

You are reaching for the stars today,
You have no time and love has no value,
If tomorrow I should give up and turn away,
I know, you wouldn't look back to fret and rue.

But if you ever open your heart to me,
I would still be standing here,
Hopelessly loving you like I have always had,
Dreaming of a lifetime to share.
© 2008 Rituparna Das

Time

Life and it's uncertainty,
Today it's all the more so,
If I am to die today,
With me this secret will go.

You will be here not knowing,
Perhaps a little sad for a day or two,
Then they will fade and be gone,
Memories of me, that you barely knew.
© 2008 Rituparna Das